Assalamualaikum and hai :)
Good afternoon everyone 🌸. In just one hour, I will be sitting for my calculus test. But here I am, writing on my blog instead. How are you all feeling today? Okay or not?
As for me… honestly, I’m not okay. Right now, I feel nervous and anxious not because of the test, but because of something else. Deep inside, there’s this fear, something I can’t even describe. I don’t know what it is or why I feel it. Maybe it’s about me, maybe my family. But the feeling of being scared is just there, haunting me.
People always see me as happy, cheerful, full of smiles 😊. But behind that, no one really knows my weakest side. The truth is, I cry a lot at night, quietly, when no one can see. I often feel like I’m not good enough not a good daughter to my mom, not a good friend to my friends, not even a good sister to my siblings. Insecurities creep into me, and sometimes they feel so heavy.
There are times when I feel so lonely. I’m scared of being lonely, yet strangely, I also want to be alone. Weird, isn’t it? Even though I spend so much time with my family, I never share my problems, worries, or fears with them. I just keep everything inside, even though I know it’s not healthy for me.
I pray that one day, I can heal from all this. That I can be truly happy, not just pretend to be. 🌷✨
Assalamualaikum and bye :)